Thursday, December 12, 2013


Wooohooo!!!  Derek did it!!  He is accepted into 5 dental schools!! All of his hard work and dedication has finally paid off!!  All of the being poor college students, ridiculous amounts of money gone towards taking the DAT, applying to school, secondary application fees, hold fees, plane tickets/hotels/rental cars/food/etc. spent on dental interviews, and several other fees are all worth it.  Missing my husband while he stuffed his face in the books to take his DAT right after we had a newborn, and basically being a single mom for the past couple months while he traveled around to different schools to interviews is all worth it. The wait is FINALLY over!  Derek is going to start dental school in the fall and we are moving away.  We are one step closer to our goal and putting our family in a better situation.
    The road hasn't been easy.  It has been hard on both of us, and we have both sacrificed a lot to make this happen.  But I am so happy to say it's worth it!  I am so proud of Derek.  He has worked his FANNY off to get to this point thus far.  He is the hardest worker I know, and I am so grateful for him.  He says his main motivation has been Levi and I, and we are the main reason as to why he is doing this.  I am so grateful that Derek is working so hard so that our little family will be better off in the end.  Our end goal is to own our own practice, and to also travel to do dental humanitarian work as a couple.  I hope to be able to help with office work and do all that I can to help better Derek's dream.
     Derek has been accepted to the IDEP Creighton program which does 1 year at ISU and 3 years in Nebraska.  That programs we would get in state tuition so that would be nice.  They only accept 8 students into that IDEP program, so I am extremely proud of Derek!  He was also accepted into Midwestern University in Glendale, AZ, University of Louisville in Louisville, KY, Case Western in  Cleveland, OH, and MUSC in Charleston, SC.
    We do have our decision narrowed down some, but we have not made our final decision.  We have until the end of this month to make our decision.  We have been prayerful and have been putting in a lot of thought into this decision.  It doesn't only affect Derek, but it also effects Levi and I and our future children. We really do want our children to be where they need to be.  That adds some stress to the decision.
      We want to thank all of our family and friends for all their help to help us get to this point thus far!  For helping Derek study, any helpful advice, prayers, for watching Levi so I could go to work and help support Derek while he went to school or was out of town for interviews, and for all of your support!  We know that we couldn't have done it without all of you!!!
      I will keep you guys posted on our final decision, but we are so grateful we even have options!!  The stress of waiting to know if Derek would be starting school is no longer weighing on our shoulders!!   I am incredibly proud of my smart, hard working husband, and I can't wait for the next chapter in our lives!

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Delivery Story (3 months later)

Going to the hospital to have a baby!
Holy moly!  An update is truly needed at this time!  Apparently being a mom takes up all of my time!  I feel like I need to update everyone on my delivery.  I'm not sure how many gruesome details everyone wants, but labor was a very long process.
   I got there at 6:30 in the morning.  While I was walking to the delivery room I literally froze.  I was scared silly, Derek had to give me a little pep talk.  I got all hooked up to my IV, BP cuff, baby HR monitor, my contraction monitor, and my pitosin.  This made going to the bathroom one heck of a time!!
  The Dr came in and tried to break my water at either 8 or 9 am (I can't remember).  After about 10 minutes of the worst pain someone has put me through, the Dr said he was going to try a different approach. They used some medicine to soften my cervix, and I had to lay there for 4 hours until he came back.
   Finally the Dr came back at either 12 or 1 (I can't remember), to try and break my water again.  I don't know how I didn't swear, cry, scream, or kick the Dr in the face.  I have never experienced so much pain in my life!! Having the Dr try to break my water was seriously the worst thing ever.  The nurse told me that she had never seen someone go through as much as I did to get their water to break as she did with me in over 6 years.  This made me feel a little better, and that I wasn't being a wuss.  After about 10 minutes my water finally broke.  This made going to the bathroom even more fun.  It was sad, but I had only progressed from a 1 to a 2.5 at this point.
   The Dr came back in at about 5 and I was only at a 4.  I was so discouraged.  The nurse suggested I get an epidural because the Nurse Anesthetist was leaving at 6.  So rather than waiting as long as I possibly could to get an epidural I said heck with it.  Give me the shot now.  My body is obviously not progressing and I'm going to be in pain for a long time.
   I was so scared to get the epidural, but the N.A. was amazing!  It was like night and day from how I had felt before the epidural.  I would talk right through my contractions once I had the epidural.  Derek kept asking me if I even knew that I was having a contraction when my monitor would show that I was.  Luckily my family came to visit AFTER I had my epidural.  I was much more pleasant to be around after the epidural was given.  I ate my ice chips and enjoyed having some company to distract me with how long of a day it had been.
   Now for the even more discouraging part.  The Dr. came back at 11 pm to check on my progress.  I was only at a 6.  My Dr. told me that I wouldn't be giving birth until early morning so I needed to try and get some rest.  Before he left, he inserted internal monitors for my contractions and the baby's heart rate so they could better monitor what was going on.  The nurse saw my contractions on the monitor and decided to crank the pitosin all the way up to a 7.
    When the Dr. left, Derek set up his bed and we were both very discouraged.  An hour later I felt the urge to push.  We called the nurse in and she told me that I was at a 9.5.  She told me to try to push and see what happens.  Well I gave one big push and I was dilated to a 10 and ready to deliver.  I asked her if she was going to call the Dr and she said not yet.  I FREAKED out!! I did not want to deliver this baby without my Dr.  Especially because my nurse was not the best nurse in the world.  I pushed for 20 minutes, and Derek told me that he could see the head.  FINALLY she went and called the Dr.  He was there within 8 minutes.  He got all set up, and 3 pushes later I experienced the happiest moment of my life.  At 12:59 am on March 20, my little angel entered this world.
   They placed the sweetest baby I had ever seen on my chest.  He wasn't crying so I said, "Cry baby cry!", and we all started rubbing him to stimulate him.  I didn't expect tears to roll down my cheeks the moment I met this sweet baby, but I honestly can't even describe the emotions that I experienced.  Meeting that baby was the most spiritual and pure moment of my life.  I couldn't think of my life without him and I had just barely met him.

   They took my baby to a warm bed to check his vitals.  He sprawled out and put his hands behind his head while he let them do their thing.  None of us could get over how mellow he was.  None of us had expected him to weigh 7lbs 14 oz either.  We all laughed at the fact that he was almost 8 pounds and I had just delivered that chubby boy.
  When I held that little boy in my arms his name immediately came to my head.  I knew that his name was Levi Derek Dawson.  I was so grateful to experience this because I was panicking that we still didn't have a set name for him.

   Levi has been the greatest blessing to us.  He is mellow, content, and has the cutest little chubby cheeks on the block.  Being a mom is the greatest gift I have ever been given.  I was scared about what if I didn't have the maternal instincts, what if I missed my freedom, and what if I didn't know what to do.  I have surprised myself with the fact that I DO have maternal instincts, and I wouldn't change my life for a second.  It's hard to believe we even lived without Levi.  We adore this sweet boy so much.  He melts our heart each day, and he makes me want to be a better person.
   That is a very condensed version of my labor, but all the little details would take too long to share.  I left out the part where I could only eat ice chips for almost 24 hours and I was starving, so right after delivery my nurse ran and grabbed me a sandwich. I left out how the first time I tried walking after the epidural wore off that my legs gave out and I fell on the bed. I left out the part where they didn't have enough rooms for us to go into the mommy and baby dept so we were stuck in the
labor and delivery section and were at the bottom of their priority list for a day. Hahaha.  Labor is not glamorous!! I am proud to say I did not poop while delivering!!  That was one of my biggest fears.  Recovery sucks after delivering, and no one explained to me exactly how unglamorous it truly is.  But as crazy as it sounds, going through all of it was completely worth it.  In the middle of it, I wasn't so sure I would come out in the end being able to say that, but guess what?  I'm at the end of it, and it definitely is all worth it!

Monday, March 18, 2013

Big News!!

Well.. I have some good news!! First of all, the baby flipped on his own at 37 weeks.  I worked a 10 hour day and I was having a lot of contractions that night.  I went home and laid on the couch and I felt a ton of pressure (which I now know was his head pushing while flipping), and I felt a lot of sharp pains down under (which I now know was his head pushing down).  I went to the Dr the next day and we took an ultrasound to make sure he flipped.  Sure enough that cute little boy had flipped!! No scheduled C-section for me!! YAY!
I am currently 40 weeks and 2 days pregnant.  I am not progressing at all which is a bummer.  I've been 90% effaced and dilated at a 1 for a couple of weeks now.  We decided to give it a week and schedule an induction on Saturday.  Today at work I got a call from Labor and Delivery saying that they had an opening for Wednesday and asked if I could get induced early.  I told them YES!!  Well... I got another call about an hour or 2 ago saying that they want to get me in in the morning!!!  I am freaking out!!!  Labor terrifies me, and I'm especially nervous b/c my body isn't progressing on it's own and I have to rely on medicine to bring this baby into the world.  I am so nervous, and slightly in shock!!  It all happened so quickly!!  I pray that labor will go well and we will have no scares!! I pray that this sweet baby boy will have good health and strength.  I don't usually do this, but any sort of prayers and thoughts would be deeply appreciated at this time!!! Thanks so much everyone!  Ready or not here he comes!!

39 weeks and 2 days

40 weeks and 1 day

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

A little bit of craziness!

Well, the past few weeks have been a little bit crazy!  I am now 34 weeks and 4 days pregnant.  Derek is over his head with homework and tests and running on overload.  About 2 weeks ago we came home from dinner and were sitting on the couch.  Derek's heart started racing out of nowhere and he couldn't get it to slow down.  He laid down, took deep breaths, and then we tried different valsalva maneuvers.  Valsalva maneuvers are different techniques you can do to slow down a heart rate.  Some of these include bearing down, holding your breath and then pushing it all out, and putting ice on a person's neck without them knowing.  Derek's heart raced for 3 hours, and he finally just decided to try and sleep it off.  The next morning he was completely exhausted from his heart racing for so long, he slept through 2 classes.  Finally Derek texted me and asked if I'd go to the Dr. with him so we could check out his heart.  I had to find someone to cover the rest of my shift, and got to Rexburg at about 1.  They did a CKG which looked good, (because his heart rate was normal at this point), his blood pressure was high, and when Derek laid down the Dr. heard a slight heart murmur.  He recommended that we do an echocardiogram to check out his heart murmur in greater detail to make sure that there is no hole or deformities in his heart.  It could be nothing, or it could be something.  It just stinks because we really can't afford to go get the test at this time.  Hopefully we will be able to soon.  Derek has been monitoring his sodium intake to lower his blood pressure, and he has been trying to exercise more.  He has also been trying to reduce stress... which really isn't happening.  He is taking his hardest classes this semester, we are having a baby about 3 weeks before finals, he's doing his internship on top of it, and he is trying to start on the process of applying for dental school and studying for the DAT.  Poor kid!  I know that he can do it, but he sure has a lot on his plate right now!  I will tell you that he hasn't had any more weird heart palpitations or long periods of racing since the Dr. visit.  Let's cross our fingers that the heart murmur is no big deal and that he can control his blood pressure through diet and exercise.

     On another note, I had my Dr. visit on Friday and the baby is still in breech position.  I have to go in for an ultrasound next week to see if he is has turned into  the head down position.  If he is still breech, I have to go in to the hospital at 39 weeks, the Drs will lube me up and try and get that baby into the head down position.  I have heard that sometimes this process can send you into labor.  If they still can't get the baby head down, then they will have to perform a C-section right there.  The Dr. wants us to do a C-section if this is the case because he doesn't want to risk the body coming out, and then the head getting stuck in me with the possibility of the umbilical cord getting wrapped around his neck.  Where this is my first baby he said that I  probably have a tighter cervix and it is too dangerous trying to do a vaginal birth.  So... there is a slight possibility that I could be having this baby in about 5 weeks... so crazy!!!  We are hoping that this baby will change positions on his own.  We are trying not to panic because we know that there is still 5 weeks for this little guy to get in position.  I really hope this is the case because I have heard horror stories of the recovery from C-sections.

  I am so grateful to a Dr. who is thorough.  I am confident in my Dr to help me along the way if there is any complications.  So far everything has been great, so let's hope it continues to go as such.  Derek and I are trying to stay positive, and we are confident that no matter what, all will be well.  Let's root for out little guy to get in position so we can have a normal delivery and avoid the C-section.  
33 Weeks (Sorry, this is the most current)